Saturday, April 19, 2008
Here writes Urs truly!!!
I still love her. & I want to be with her. My previous 2 blogs talk about just letting her have her break. And me having mine. I just want to leave it as at is. Just as what the anonymous writer had said. I just try too hard to get close. That I should give it time. I'm leaving it to fate that we will be together again. During this time, I will change. To be a better person. Chanel, I love you very much.
Should fate bring us back together, I'll cherish you forever. Have faith Laurel.
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4/19/2008 08:51:00 PM
Here writes Urs truly!!!
"If that's the way You want it", Since when do you care what I want? I just wanted to heal the wounds. You threw it back at me. Now I'm wounded. Why not say "If thats the way I you want it" when I wanted you back? When I wanted your forgiveness? No.
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4/19/2008 08:11:00 PM
Here writes Urs truly!!!
Its been a week. One week. Tell me, which guy you know lasts that long? Still there's no emotion change, no change in the tone, no change in the coldness and no change in what she does. I am no angel. I am no perfect soul. But at least I have myself to listen to. Its not my friends that tell me what to do. Its not my family members. Its my heart. Only the heart knows when to let go, when to hurt, when to be angry and when to know if there is still love around. If 2 people are meant for each other, shouldn't there be an understanding of what each other is? Shouldn't the 2 people learn to adapt and live with the blemish and imperfection of one another? If there was love there is bound to be understanding. If there was love there is bound to be forgiveness. Surely forgiveness for what I have done, does not come at a cost so high. 2 months she asks me to wait. But the grieve just waiting 1 week is unbearable. Its not that she has not made it clear that she will come back. Its the events that follow the hint of the word "break". I have tried my best.
For this I have decided to let go. If she can bear with the fact and the book of what I've done wrong to continue on like this, I cannot. She can smile, she can have fun and she can be popular, I cannot. I cannot handle the pain that has been inflicting its deep and sharp wounds. For once, of all the talk about her, I must save myself.
Your friends have told you that you are more happy without me. Your family have told you that you have been strong and have made the right choice. I'm not going to say maybe, I'm not going to say I don't know anymore. Cause those are the words I hate the most. I am going to say Its better we part. It is the better choice, because I don't want your tears to fall anymore. I don't want your heart to hurt no longer. If it may, you're better off with another guy. To you forever I will be the person who will lie to you, the person who will neglect you and the person you cannot trust. Even if we were to come back together, I will always be like that to you.
It is hard for me to say this, as a person who went through 1 week of pain for you, one week of tears and one week of thinking. You were great, you were caring. This chapter will always be etched into my heart as one I will never forget. A scar and a story to tell, a learning point and a memory.
All I want to leave behind is, Nice to Meet you Anyway. Thanks.
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4/19/2008 05:29:00 AM
